To expect things to get easier is trite. I hurt so much, my love. Thing is, I know you are completely gone. I wish I were religious, and could gain comfort thinking you were watching over me. Truth is, it’s all bollocks, and that’s it. I’m just waffling to myself. “I love you WITH ALL MY HEART”, you said to me, repeatedly. I wish you could hear me say that to you again now. Xxxx